So… i found a guy I kinda like and I feel like we can start dating, but all my friends are giving me shit because he isn’t that good looking. Bunch of hypocrites… You guys all say its not about the outer beauty, its all about the inner beauty, but when it comes down to it you guys don’t even take the time know ‘ugly’ guy.
Plus beauty is relative isn’t it? I find him attractive… He actually is a genuine nice and caring person and so much more of a man then any of the haters will be. Ya’ll mutha fuckers need to stop hatting and open your god damn eyes. Didn’t know you guys were that low….
what am if I can’t control anything? useless. 100% useless
It seems that every guy I start to like gets taken… I flirt and it is obvious that I like the dude, and everyone knows it, but they just end up playing me and start dating someone else… The past 3 crushes been like that. It sucks because all three of them flirted back and led me on. I just thought they wanted to take it slow… guess I went too slow because the other better looking, taller, and more fit gays who are more forward took the opportunity to ask them out where as I didn’t have the guts to do…
I’ve always been the chaser… and for what? I always either end up losing the person or they lose interest in me and all i’m left with is an empty wallet and being hurt.
single life ftw =.=
I feel like 2014 i’m becoming a new person. Things are changing and I’m becoming distant from the family and friends who I love… I’m not the type of person to miss people so I have neglected to remember where I’ve came from and i seriously need a reality check to ground myself again…
The past is what grounds you
The future is what want to be prepared for
and the present is what you enjoy
So its been about 2 or 3 weeks since I went cold turkey… And idk man… still getting the withdrawal. I mean from going from a pack a day to all of a sudden none is making me go crazy. The way I’ve been copping is with eatting massive and massive amounts of chocolate. Like you guys have no clue how much chocolate I’ve consumed over the past few weeks. That and I basically feel like I’m on my period or some shit cus i’m cranky and tired all the time… fml i’m getting fatter and fatter…
you guys have no clue… like… no fucking idea how much i miss her….
The individuals that I have met here in California have reached to me in so many different ways T.T i’m so fucking thankful and blessed that i was able to meet so many of them and befriend them all. I have the best fucking roommates in the world and I found the best fucking community here in Davis. I have changed so much in my character and outlook in life and i find it so comforting. There were so many humbling experiences that I’ve been through so far in my short stay here and there has been a lot of trails and errors, but i’m not surprised because i’m used to fucking up a lot.
I have allowed my past experiences to hold me back and seriously fuck up my emotions. I hid behind a facade of humor so that i people would not question my sanity. I wrote this quote five months ago and its disappointing that it took me this long to finally take heed of my own words, “Don’t allow your past to hold you down. Your past is your foundation, not your gravity. Build on it and move upward towards your future.”
The past five days has been a mutha fuckin roller coaster of strange emotions. I guess its that time of the year again where my depression relapses. Luckily, this time around, I was able to surround myself with so many amazing people. The support and sense of belonging is so real here, and the strange part is that none of my friends know how much they have influenced me. They do it unconsciously, which tells me that they are fosho keepers. Every single one of them are so fucking magical and amazing, and basically have rainbows shitting out of their asses because they are so commendable in my eyes.
I’m truly getting that college experience here at Davis. By living dat Dorm life, making new friends, experiencing a new culture, joining a fraternity, doing all those useless all nighters, going on dates, drinking, puffing, and doing all the other crazy things, I have created new chapter of my life here. Coming to California, by far is the scariest, riskiest, and dumbest thing I have done in my life, but California has given me everything that i wanted and more. Davis shall always be my safe little haven in which I can evaluate my life and ambitions. Away from all the burdensome worries of my past.
Thank You God for giving me this opportunity to rehabilitate myself for I was truly dying in the inside before coming here. I pray I don’t nullify this opportunity… I am truly grateful on how I have received countless amounts of ‘second’ chances, and it is kind of disappointing that I still haven’t gotten my shit together… Yesterday was the day in which I finally took the time, paused, and looked at my current surroundings. I love it here. I’ve learned so much about my self and what I can become, and this time… I promise to come out matured and educated as i familiarize myself in what i truly want for my self and for the ones i love.
The past few weeks made me realize how blessed I am to be given the opportunity to study at UC Davis. I love it here so much… You guys have no clue… Seattle will always be my hometown and Atlanta will always be my homebase, but Davis will always be my safe haven.
I realized that everyone in college is thirsty like no other =.= some people are just better at hiding it then others. It only takes a short convo with the whores and who they have slept with to find out that the gays in Davis are basically in a huge orgy with one another. at least i don’t front about it and pretend to be something I’m not
I’m done… I’m sorry but if you want me to get involved with all this, then sorry i’m gone. I don’t want some crazy ass nigga come after me cus i’m messing with someone’s man. buh bye to my love life cus its non-existent now
soooo KASA and KRoh had a party/kick back last night and it was actually somewhat decent. Never seen so many fobs so drunk haha
So my friend had to take a mad shit so he went upstairs where there was a mutha fuckin line and took a shit. When the next guy went in he was like 똥냄새 쩌러! omg… i died laughing… and as he was heading downstairs he was like 발냄새 시발! omg… i fucking died… the way he said it and his face… omg… i can’t…. i fucking love fobs